I have been asleep for 33 years of my life. I am 35 now. I grew up in the culture where it was not ok to express anger, where anger has been claimed as dangerous, violent, bitchy, hysterical.

I was taught to not show my feelings, especially anger. I did well, because that’s what everyone did to survive.

I grew up in a culture where “showing up” has been a bad taste, and in the past you could actually go to jail, or be sent to the death camp, for your ‘charisma’ and vividness.

The life had moved on for many generations for many people, with a stronger force of other authorities leading you through your life, determining where and how we will go through it on the average of 60 years of lifespans.

It was decided to cut down a few forests so we can build prosperous cities. It was decided that the waste from the factories can go straight into our rivers, it was then decided we can treat civilization related illnesses with other lab chemicals we call medicine.

Have you seen the footage from the corporate animal farms, where the pigs are stucked up one on top of the other in filth and darkness, forced to eat each other’s waste? Eventually the animals go so desperate, they start biting each other’s tales off and submit to cannibalism and violence within the group. Could it be that We, the representatives of the modern culture of any degree, also do not notice that we’ve been kept in captivity before we go on destroying each other?

There was a moment when I woke up. I felt like I was in a dream, and I couldn't make sense of where am I and why is everyone else asleep? I stood there and I felt angry. I felt angry that everything seems pointless, that I and others are in a sheep herd. Something felt fake, or more so, sedated. I was seeing the reality around me, and I had strong feelings about it.

I looked around and I saw adolescent boys that call themselves men, the weakened women around them to support the uninitiated masculinity for survival. I saw the high walls of the animal factories located by the river and I could smell the energetic and physical death of the space, that we, humans, don’t take a full responsibility for. I saw all the grief and the anger in the faces of the people who have been through generations of repressions, rape, poverty, and violence. I saw powerlessness. With the deep grief I let come through me, I felt angry. I wanted everyone to wake the fuck up. And this turning point, you can either accept reality as it is, or do something about it.

Few months prior I started doing rage work, in a context of a RAGE club, for the first time in my life, experiencing new sensations in my bodies, for the first time experiencing the power of conscious anger. I was noticing the life I have given up by sacrificing my anger to survive. I noticed how I am someone else without my rage. Once I saw it I could no longer pretend, I could no longer sacrifice my magic.

There was a new consciousness awakening within me, the new wisdom of power, I was awakening something long forgotten.

My anger was a torch in the darkness, and I was not about to keep it to myself. I Imagined what it would be like, if people started feeling angry? What if all of us had clarity of what defines our reality? Are we even living? To ask yourself those questions, and more so, to be able to have clarity to answer them, you will need anger. Sitting with all said above will make you feel things, hopefully until your heart is completely broken. When you feel like you hit the bottom with having a brand-new reality check, then it is time to celebrate. Congratulations, you just made it out of the zombie mindset someone else was feeding you the whole entire life. Now what?

The Fire will wake you up!

Now you will love to learn what to do with what you’ve got, and how exactly can you use your anger to create the life you want to live in. This will mean grand things, imagine choosing what is it that you really want, or setting clear boundaries, or even completely change everything about your life. Most importantly, it is about taking your authority back from your parents, teachers, social media, sports coaches, and becoming the person of agency. Becoming the source of the power to feed yourself and others.

And this is what I am taking a stand for!

It has been almost one year since I am holding space for Rage Clubs, within the context of Possibility Management, holding spaces for people to come close to meet their own power, so they can be of service to their destinies, so we can finally wake up and create! Together! Men and Women! With everything around us!

I am taking a stand for people to be authentic, because I really want to meet who you are. Because I really want you to meet who I am. I am taking a stand for women to become the radiating power, to start remembering what kind of magic we are capable of, to start remembering the Grande power we are that has been sacrificed for survival in Patriarchy. I am taking a stand for men to come to their initiated masculine adulthood so the women’s magic can unfold. I am taking a stand for co-creation of the next culture, the sacred union of empowered feminine and masculine.

I am at service for transformation, healing and love. I am commited to your commitment. I am taking a stand for creating spaces where more people can come closer to experience the immense power of conscious anger, so we can enter the next culture together! And imagine, it can be anything great you have envisioned!

Learn more about Rage club: rageclub.org,
And my personal website: jenya-anderz.mystrikingly.com